Poetry — September 26, 2011 14:14 — 0 Comments

Not That I Want To Be There – Christine Hope Starr

When the last child was born, we surmise,
they stopped. What else?

Then our first love comes, or lust, with its blur
of weekends of sheet-burned backs, of bedroom
smells, its privacies, its lunacies,
its irrefutable,
disconcerting,
adrenalized
bare facts.
This is a motion love only
rarely makes into a child. This is not
what we thought.
Try remarriage with kids. Young enough, or naive
enough, or well squared in denial, they know
nothing should be happening behind that door.
Flouting this is graver than dismantling Santa,
and the twin mystery and magic the same.
So, my mate and I, we try to be quiet, moan with our eyes,
nicker in the well of our chests, surge without banging
the furniture, sigh into each other’s necks
and dead lift the heft
of our passion like moon-wild thieves. Loving this.
And I want them well loved.
I imagine them sometimes, unsullied,
easing into it. Unafraid. I imagine them loving
the motion. Just
for the motion. The rapture
of never having baggage
to cast off, especially
the unwanted thought of parents,
naked, wide-eyed with lust, bearing the gift of all that flesh,
handing it down to them.

Bio:

Christine Hope Starr is pleased to receive her first electronic publication with The Monarch Review. She dances with her husband and daughters each night after dinner, while their cats, as cats will, feign ennui. Her poetry and essays have appeared or are forthcoming in Cider Press Review, Compass Rose, Confrontation, Eclipse, Permafrost, Soundings East, Spoon River Poetry Review, Studio One, Whiskey Island, and others. She holds an MFA from Vermont College of Fine Arts, which nominated her for Best New Poets 2009. She teaches writing (and fearless inquiry) at Doane College in Nebraska.

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What am I?

Bioluminescent eye
That sees by the shine
Of its own light. Lies

Blind me. I am the seventh human sense
And my stepchild,
Consequence;

Scientists can't find me.

Januswise I make us men;
Glamour
Was my image then—

Remind me:

The awful fall up off all fours
From the forest
To the hours…

Tick, Tock: Divine me.

-- Richard Kenney